Falling Back

I am so upset at myself right now! I have been doing so good lately, but I still need to focus and stay on the right track! It feels horribly to feel like your falling backwards and off the right path. Now I just have to step up and make sure I try my hardest to stay on track! I am so blessed and I have to just keep that in mind, and stay motivated to stay positive!

Possibly moving

Josh and I found a cute little house. Im in love with it. I am so excited and praying things go the way we want them to. We are ready to move and be on our own again. It will be so wonderful to be just us again! Josh is working again and im working full time now. I just hope we will have enough time together.

Faith

Sometimes things happen and we dont understand why. God allows certain things into our lives to strengthen us and to bring us closer to him. Things may seem impossible, but with god all things are possible. We just have to trust in him and accept that all good things happen for those who love the lord. The things that seem like burdens may truly blessings.

Seeing the Brighter Side

Things are looking a lot brighter these days. I may work all the time but I am so thankful and blessed to have a job. Josh goes back to work monday! God is great and has truly been answering prayers. We owe all to him and should show our appreciation more.

Dog Tired

Im running on four hours of sleep and I worked 9 hours today. Im so tired right now its ridiculous. For some reason I just could not sleep last night. Not to mention todays labor day and I had to work because of our huge sale. Thank goodness im off work tomorrow! All that sounds good to me right now is my pjs and my bed.

Relaxing and recharging

The last two days I have had off of work and I am so thankful for that. I really needed time to relax and recharge. It seems like all I do is work and sleep anymore. I hardly have time for anything. But I do really enjoy my job. Josh has an interview next week. Hopefully he will get the job. Things will be a litgle easier if he does.

Life as of Now

It seems as if all of my time is spent either at work or asleep. I feel like I have neglected my family and friends, but I have to work. I feel somewhat like I am letting everyone drift away from me, and that is not what I want at all. I love my brothers, and my sister. I wish I could spend more time with them. That is all I want right now, but I have now time anymore. My family is more important, but I have to work. I am still hoping that Josh will find a job, and then maybe I can afford not to work as much. As of right now, I work everyday for the next two weeks, except for next Wednesday! We just really need the money.
Don't get me wrong, I love my Job, but I would love to have sometime with my family. I am so stressed right now, and I don't even really feel like myself anymore. It's almost as if I am a robot, I sleep, get up, get ready for work, go to work, and then repeat the cycle. I feel like no one understands this either, and that they feel like I am blowing them off or something. It stinks right now, and I have no idea what to do other than to keep on working and hope everyone understands. I have worked hard to get close to my family in the last year and I don't want us to drift apart over my job. I love them and hope we stay close.