Busy, Crazy Life

So it's been a while since I have posted anything! Since August actually! Not a lot has changed though. School is still stressful as ever, and life goes by faster each day it seems. I think the big theme in my life right now is stress! Everything lately is all so stressful, and hard to manage. I plan on starting to post more and maybe (I hope) that will help relieve some of the stress!

As far as the dieting has gone, it is pretty much down the toilet! I haven't stuck to it and haven't been keeping an eye on my weight lately! That is about to change though. I am starting to count calories again, and I will be exercising regularly. That actually starts tomorrow! My mom and I are going to be doing it together. She only needs to lose 30 pounds though! It will be nice to have someone doing it with me, and to have that support. I really want to get healthy. Having PCOS makes me feel so miserable all the time and it can be painful. I hate it, but God put it in my life for a reason. I want to just feel better, and then I want to start a family. I don't want to do it now and be unhealthy during/after pregnancy. I want to be healthy and enjoy my family. I want most in this world is to be a mom, and in the next 5 years I pray that happens. I don't want it too soon. I want to be in good health for a while before I get pregnant, be finished with school, and have a good career.

Married life, well it's married life. There is some good, and then there is bad as well. We hardly see each other, and that can really be hard at times. That seems to be the main issue, no time for each other. Hopefully that will change soon because next semester I won't take five classes again haha. I'm only going to do three, maybe four. That will give me some more free time. Josh is taking classes too, and I think we may try to get one together so we can see each other a little more, and so we can help each other.

I think that's all I have to catch everyone up on! Until Tomorrow.......Goodnight!

Stressing Already!

I know school can be stressful in general, but some teachers make it unreal! I have one that thinks she can tell you to dress in business wear and cover all tattoos that may be showing! I mean get out of here lady!!!! We are paying to take this class and learn, not to be judged or critiqued over our wardrobe . She also says that she usually fails people for missing a class. She said she won't do that this semester but she will drop us a letter grade per absence. It's ridiculous! I have thought about dropping it but I've never dropped a class before. I'd like to keep it that way, but I'm not going to rule it out as an option. Then my three online teachers act like we don't have any other classes and pile on the work. Oh we'll, you gotta do what you gotta do right?! Keep me and my sanity in you thoughts and prayers please ;) 

Back to School!

Today marks the first day back to classes. I am excited, but nervous all at once. I love school but the stress can get very overwhelming. I'm taking five classes again this semester. I took five last semester and thought I would never survive it (haha). But I did and now I am doing it again. I hope and pray that it will all go smoothly. I am going to be counting down the days to vacation though. Josh and I will be married five years October 6th and we are leaving for the mountains for a week! I am so excited, and cannot wait! Good luck to anyone else starting back to school! 

college, computers, & cancer

Originally blogged: 7/23/12

You may look at the title and think wtf, right? You may also think that two of those go together, but what does cancer have to do with them?

Well I am going to start college back soon, which is super exciting and stressful at the same time! I received good news today about getting a new computer, which I need for school. Awesome, right? Well the last part isn't so awesome. Tomorrow is my mamaws appointment with her cancer doctor. I just get more nervous and stressed as the night goes on. It all doesn't look very promising, but I am trying to keep faith that it will all turn out okay.

It just breaks my heart that all of this us going on with her. So I try to stay strong for her and never let her see me cry, but inside I am falling apart. I feel like I am completely losing it. I guess we will see what the chances  are tomorrow.