Fourth Wedding Anniversary!

So Josh and I have been married for four years. Sometimes it doesn't seem that long, and then other times it seems like a lot longer! While it has been a bumpy road getting to this point, I wouldn't trade it for anything! He is still my best friend, and the person I can't wait to talk to and see everyday!

We have our fair share of fights, but I would rather fight with him then be with anyone else. I know as time goes on we will have some more rough times, but I look forward to many more years together.

Hospital, Stress, and Eating Out

Life for the last week has been crazy! Last Sunday night, mamaw couldn't breathe, her blood pressure was very high, her head, chest, and right arm were numb. So we called and an ambulance came to get her. She was going to have a stroke, but luckily that got to her in time. She was admitted in to the hospital, where she has been ever since. They finally got most of the fluid off of her, about seventeen pounds worth of flood. They had to stop chemo and radiation until they can get her red blood cell count back up. We are hoping that she will be able to start back on treatment soon, and come home sometime this week. She looks a lot better, but she still has a long way to go.

So all that happened late Sunday night, and I had my first day of class at 8:30 the next morning. Needless to say I was and have been very stressed! Classes went great however. I love the way they are set up. I have Math, then go directly to Math Lab, Then I stay in the same classroom for my Computers class, I go home for two hours, and then head back for my last class. So I have a break to come home, let the pups out, and have lunch. I have been leaving from school to go over to the hospital when I am done with class.

I needed to start my insulin resistance diet, but with everything going on it is almost impossible. It is a lot easier to pick something up since I am basically on the run all day. Hopefully when see gets home, I can start on it. Wish me luck ;)

Fast and Easy French Bread Pizza

So anyone can come up with their own version of french bread pizza, its pretty simple, but its really good. Its great for long days when you don't feel like really cooking, and just want something fast.

Ingredients:  (It can vary depending on what you like)

Pizza Sauce
French Bread
Pepporoni
Ground Beef (How much depends on the amount of people you are feeding)
Mushrooms
Mozzarella cheese

One Long, but Sort Of Good Day

So today, my hunny took a PTO day from work so he could take me to the hospital. I got up this morning and my ankle was a lot worse, and I couldn't walk on it. He took me to the hospital and it is a severe sprained ankle, and they won't me to stay off of it because it could break very easily. Which is not what I need right now, that's for sure!

After that we went to walmart to drop off my prescription I got from the hospital and to do some shopping. I needed some more stuff for school, but my love surprised me and told me to pick out a new laptop, and let me get some other stuff too! He is the best! I love him, and he has been taking such good care of me! Well we were going to get Macbooks from this student financing plan, but we decided we didn't want another payment right now, but we may use the money they approved us for later.

Mamaw had chemo again today, and they started her radiation today as well. They said she did an awesome job. They gave her a Xanax for her stress and pain, and boy let me tell you she is hilarious! I am just glad that they are doing treatment, she isn't in pain, and that they are so wonderful with her.
Today has been a very tiring and painful (physically) for me, but it has been a great day too!

Emergency, Chemo, and Radiation

So today I took mamaw to get blood work done at the cancer center. They check her blood pressure and the alarms went off. It was 215 over 130. Very dangerous, very very high! They called her in to talk to the nurse and she had them to draw blood, and give her a blood pressure pill to get it down.

Well the nurse didn't like how swelled she was, and that her breathing was getting worse so she called us in to talk to the radiation doctor. He went over the pet scan with us, and there was some bad news, and some kind of good news. The tumor had grown so much that it has wrapped itself around one of the main arteries in her chest. It could cause her to have a stroke, or go into heart failure. That is what is causing the swelling, the loss of breathe, and the high blood pressure. He said we had to move very quickly, that it was an emergency and they would have to start both chemo, and radiation today!

I am so relieved that they started treatment, and I am so glad that this doctor was pissed that all the other doctors hadn't done anything yet. He said by looking at her anyone could see that they needed to start treatment quickly.

She had her first session of chemo today, she will have two more this week. They marked her for radiation today, and will begin it tomorrow. They will be doing chemo three times a week, and radiation every day.

ABC'S of Me!

ABC's of me!

The ABC’s of Me:
A. Age: 22.

B. Bed size: King

C. Chore you dislike:Laundry in General!

D. Dogs: Baby Bear

E. Essential start to your day: Stretch and Snuggle with my love.

F. Favorite colors:Purple, and Black

G. Gold or silver: White Gold

H. Height: 5'3"

I. Instruments you play(ed): Guitar, Keyboard, and Flute

J. Job title:Student, Stay at home Wifey

K. Kids:None yet

L. Live: Drakesboro, Kentucky

M. Mom’s name:Diana

N. Nicknames: Piglet, Miss Piggy, Manna, Man-Man, Pup

O. Overnight hospital stays: None

P. Pet peeves: Rudeness, and People Picking at their nails! 

Q. Quote from a movie: "That's what Ther-rape-me is all about!" Girl Interupted

R. Righty or lefty: Righty.

S. Siblings:Darby Joel 19, Tarryn Dawn 17, Brandon Michael 17

T. Time you wake up:Whenever I absolutely have to

U. Underwear: Yep, love to buy underwear lol!

V. Vegetables you don’t like:Asparagus, Peas, and Fresh Tomatoes

W. What makes you run late:My hubby! He is always making us run late for everything!

X. X-rays you’ve had: My knee, and my hip.

Y. Yummy food you make: Stuffed shells, Shrimp Alfredo, Cabbage Rolls, Stuffed Peppers, Cupcakes, Cookies, and Cheese Cake Bites

Z. Zoo animal you like: Zebras, and Giraffes

Thanks to Kara for sharing this with me! http://thirtyteensytoes.blogspot.com/

Ted, Ice Cream Hunt, and School

So last night we watched Ted! It was so funny and I hadn't laughed that hard in a while. I wish I had my own talking teddy bear, or that my dog Bear could talk!!

So yesterday I need to get out of the house, so my husband took me on a hunt to find an Ice cream I've been looking for, for months now. It's the Carrot Cake Ice cream from blue bunny and chef Duff Goldmen from ace of cakes. I've had the Red velvet cake ice cream and its so good but I want to try the rest of them, and I love carrot cake so I have to find it! We searched all over, and so many stores yesterday and still no luck! I sure hope I find it soon.

So school starts exactly a week from tomorrow! I'm excited but nervous at the same time! I have to get the rest of my supplies this week, and a bookbag. I just haven't found one I like yet. I'm looking forward to shopping though ha-ha. I think ill probably go to Target first to look for a bookbag. Hopefully I find one I like! Wish me luck!

5Day Random Challenge: Day5!

Day 5: One Wish You Have or One Thing You Would Change About Your Life

If I could change one thing about my life, I would have stayed in college four years ago. That would have changed my life in many ways, and I would have finished it already! I just wish I would have continued to go, and would have made it my priority. 

Doctors, Denny's, and Dreams

Today was full of running and appointments. Mamaw had several appointments today, and a pet scan. We met with the Surgeon today, and scheduled here surgery for Thursday. They are going to be pointing her port in to begin Chemo.

After all of the appointments, it was after 5pm and we hadn't eaten all day. So we went to Denny's. My mom was watching my nephew Jeremiah, and they came to dinner. I love seeing him, no matter how you feel he puts you in a great mood! He sure does love Chocolate Milk, but shhh don't tell his momma!

So when we got home, mamaw and I were both wore out. She took a nap, so I went to my room and laid down and shortly after fell asleep. I have been having crazy dreams lately. They make no sense whatsoever! They have been really weird. I make sure to tell someone as soon as I wake up so I won't forget them. But they have been really, really bizarre that's for sure. It makes getting up more interesting thats for sure lol.

Random Challenge: Day4

Day 4: Describe Two of Your Favorite Memories

My wedding Day is First! More than it just being my wedding day, but my mom helping me get ready, and my dad walking me down the isle. That is something I will always hold on to, and cherish! Then there is my husband too, not to leave him out. I married my best friend that day, and that is something to be proud of.

Second would be my little brother, Brandon's Eagle Scout Court of Honor! I am so proud of him, and the man he has become. Only 4 in every hundred boys scouts will become an Eagle Scout. Many of our President's have been eagle scouts, so it is something to be proud of. He gave a great presentation when he gave my dad a mentor award. He said he wouldn't be there without him, or his help. How he raised him to be who he is. It just really made me proud, and realize that he is no longer a little boy.

5Day Random Challenge: Day 3

Day 3:Three of Your All Time Favorite Movies

I love to watch movies, but I takes a lot for me to say they are in my list of favorites! We will go backwards, from least favorite, to most favorite!

3. Pirates of the Caribbean (the Series)
2. Harry Potter (the Series)
1. Underworld (Series), But Rise of the Lycans is my favorite of the series. 

Snooze Button, Cat Woman, and Being Lazy

So I baked a cake last night for church.........Its a good thing it made it there eve though we didn't. Mom took it with her when she left. So at least it is going be there.
I very disappointed that we over slept. We only have ourselves to blame, and Josh's constant pushing of the snooze button. We have missed the last 3 times, and I feel really sad by that. We love our church, and our church family, but lately it has really been a struggle for us to get there. If it isn't one thing, it's another. Next Sunday we absolutely need to make it. I always feel so much better when I go.
So we are going to have pizza for lunch and watch Cat Woman. I have had this movie for about 3 years, I had gotten it as a Christmas present from my mom and dad, but I still haven't watched it. So that's our plan for today. Be lazy, watch movies, and eat! Sounds like the perfect plan to me! After all, Sunday is the day of rest!

Easy and Simple Chocolate Frosting

I am making a cake for church tomorrow, and thought I would share my recipe for chocolate icing! It couldn't get any easier or tastier than this! 

Ingredients:

3 Tablespoons of Butter, Softened 

1/4 Cup of Cocoa Powder 

1 1/3 Cup of Powdered Sugar

2 Tablespoons of Milk 

1/2 teaspoon of Vanilla Extract 

(Makes 1 cup)

 So there are really only two steps! Combine all ingredients into a mixer bowl and.........

mix until smooth! 

Put on your favorite cake, and enjoy it!

Mini Date, Smore Pies, and Bahama Mommas

I can get more than a little steer crazy being in this house all week. Someone has to be here with mamaw 24/7 and I am happy to do that, but sometimes I really just need a break. Not from her, but emotionally really. To just go! So I can get my mind off of things for a while. I am here with her everyday, and it can make me crazy. I see her gets worse, and I just can't do anything! It makes me feel so helpless. So It was nice to escape that feeling for just a little while.

My hunny took me on a little mini-date. I didn't feel like being around a lot of people so we hit the McDonalds Drive-Thru and I was so excited to see they had Smore Pies! Sounded so perfect for summer time! I was looking forward to it, and then I was really let down. I think they had burnt it a little, and it completely ruined it for me. I am just not the person that complains about food or sends it back. I have seen what can happen when people do that! Gross, I am not taking the risk!

I was feeling pretty down, and just thought hey Liquor Store! Now, I am not a drinker at all, and have a very low tolerance to alcohol. So I got a four pack of Bahama Mama wine coolers! They weren't great, but they were okay. It took the edge off from all the stress so I am not gonna complain haha.

Then we came home, cuddled up and planned to watch a movie, but I feel asleep. So Josh took a nap with me, he will take a nap anywhere, at anytime so I am sure he was fine with that.

I am so thankful for him. Even just the little things he did for me today, makes me appreciate him more. Now we are eating mexican pizza, and watching Storage Wars! A good ending to a good day!

5Day Random Challenge: DAY 2

Four of your favorite songs right now! Its hard for me to narrow it down to just four, but I'll give it a go!

1. Josh Turner- Time is Love
2. Carrie Underwood- Good Girl
3. Neon Trees- Everybody Talks
4. FUN- We Are Young 

That was pretty hard to do lol! I am almost constantly listening to music, and could have made a big, long list.

Five Day Random Challenge: Day 1

Five Day Challenge 

Day 1 : 5 Random Facts About You
Day 2:  4 of Your Favorite Songs Right Now
Day 3:Three of Your All Time Favorite Movies
Day 4: Describe Two of Your Favorite Memories
Day 5: One Wish You Have or One Thing You Would Change About Your Life


Day 1: Five Random Facts About Me

1.  I hate when people pop their gum! It drives me nuts!
2.  I can only sleep if I'm cold!
3.  I am in love with OrangeLeaf! Love there frozen yogurt, and the topping buffet bar haha.
4.  I am fascinated by Serial Killers. Don't freak out, I just like to read about them, and try to figure our why they did what they did. I secretly wish I was part of Criminal Minds, and that it was real life for me. I'm Crazy, I know.
5.  I hate Feet!

Monthly Favorites: July

So I don't have too many favorites this month, but I do have a few!

Hair:
Aussie- Sprunch Catch a Wave Spray 

Garnier Fructis Style- Curl Shaping Spray Gel 

Its too hot to do a whole lot but If I decide to do something other than throw my hair up in a ponytail, I love these!

Skin Care:
L'oreal Go 360 Clean- Deep Exfoliating Scrub

I still use my clinique three step skin care, and still love it, but I use this in the shower. It is great to wake you up in the morning!

Nails:
Revlon- Make Mine Mango

I have used many other ones this months, but this one has been the one I keep going back to. I just looks like summer to me!

Scents:
Victoria's Secret- Pure Seduction

One of my all time favorites, and the scent I use the most!

Lips:
C.O. Bigelow Mentha Organis Lip Tint in Just Blushes

I just through it on and in my pocket on the way out. I am a huge fan of these lip tents.

college, computers, & cancer

Originally blogged: 7/23/12

You may look at the title and think wtf, right? You may also think that two of those go together, but what does cancer have to do with them?

Well I am going to start college back soon, which is super exciting and stressful at the same time! I received good news today about getting a new computer, which I need for school. Awesome, right? Well the last part isn't so awesome. Tomorrow is my mamaws appointment with her cancer doctor. I just get more nervous and stressed as the night goes on. It all doesn't look very promising, but I am trying to keep faith that it will all turn out okay.

It just breaks my heart that all of this us going on with her. So I try to stay strong for her and never let her see me cry, but inside I am falling apart. I feel like I am completely losing it. I guess we will see what the chances  are tomorrow.

Dicisions, and Depression

 Originally blogged: 7/9/12

So my husband and I made a huge decision. Now that my grandmother is sick, and doesn't have insurance she can't really make it on her own. So we gave up our house, and have moved in with her. Someone has to be with her at all times, so I am here for that, and she also needed the financial help.

While letting our house go is sad, she is way more important. I love our home, and we put so much work into, but this was the right thing to do. When my mom ran off and left when I was a baby my grandparents took responsibility for raising me. They were my parents, and have also helped me, so it is only right that now that she needs me, that I am here for her.

Life at the Moment

Originally blogged 6/30/12

So let's start from the beginning. My mother was very young when she had me, and wasn't really ready to be a mother, So my grandparents raised me. They are my parents to me, and the most important people in my life along with my husband.

It will be three years ago in October that my Papaw lost his battle to lung cancer. I am still devastated from losing him. He was not only a father to me, but my best friend. While it gets easier to live without him, I am not now, or will I ever get over his passing.

Now I have just found out that my Mamaw has a tumor and it is very likely to be cancer. She had a biopsy done Thursday, and we have to wait 5-10 days to get the results back. I just feel so helpless, and scared. If it is cancer, I am praying that it can be treated and cured. I can even stand to think of losing her. That would be both of my "parents". I think I will seriously lose it if that is the turn out.

I know that the Lord will never give you more than you can handle, but right now it feels like he trusts me to much, and that he thinks I am stronger than what I am. However, I do also know thats not the case. He knows what we can handle and deal with better than we do.

Daily Post: What It's All About

This was the start of a new blog, but I have to decided to just keep this blog, and get rid of the other. So this will blog will consist of randomness, beauty, recipes, and my daily life!

Originally wrote on:6/7/12

We've all heard the phrase, "When life gives you lemons, make lemonade." This is my blog of daily struggles, and life changes! All in an attempt to take life's problem (Lemons) and make them into something positive (Lemonade)!

So first big problem! I have PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome). It causing infertility, weight problems, and a lot more. So I am on a journey to treat this and get all my health issues under control! My husband and I want children very badly, so this is my top priority.

Since this also cause weight gain, over the years I have gained a great deal of weight. I have never been comfortable with my body, and now it is really causes me problems having all of this excess weight. With PCOS it also makes it hard for women that suffer from it to lose weight because it causes high insulin levels, so it makes your body go into starvation mode.

So this is my journey to lose weight and get my health under control! There will also be blog entries of all my other problems and just daily life entries!

Recipe: Baked Spaghetti

This is an easy recipe to make, and it has a small list of ingredients. It is also very budget friendly. So let's get right into it.......
Ingredients:
One Box of Rigatoni Noodles (You could substitute any noodles you like or have on hand)
Family Size Jar of Ragu Garden Combination (or your favorite sauce)
2 tablespoons of Sugar
1lb of Ground Beef
1 Bag of Shredded Mozzarella

Step One: 
Brown your meat, with salt and pepper. Meanwhile you should go ahead and get your water on to boil, and then add your noodles.

Step Two:
Drain both your meat and your noodles. Put your meat to the side, we will come back to it. Place your noodles back into the pot that you used to cook them.

Step Three: Pour your sauce into the pot with the noodles, along with the sugar.  Put it back on low heat, and cook your pasta in the sauce for 3-4 minutes. Stir constantly. Then stir in the Ground beef.

Step Four: Pour into a baking dish and top with the shredded cheese. Bake it for 10 minutes!

Last and Final Step: Enjoy It :)

Being Natural

Hey everyone! So there isn't much I can talk about right now, beauty-wise anyway! I haven't wore any makeup in about a month or so. It is just too hot! Hair products haven't really changed much either. Just trying to keep my hair very hydrated! I really need to get it thinned out, and get a trim! Its way too thick, and heavy! I just try to keep it up in a ponytail!
So I've just been keeping it natural! Probably will as long as the heat continues to rise lol.

Influenster Spring Voxbox

I was so pleased with my very first Voxbox! It had things that I really enjoyed in it!

Contents:
Soyjoy- Strawberry Bar
Bath & Body Works- Paris Amour Fragrance Mist
Sally Hansen Salon Effects- Kitty, Kitty print
Dr. Scholl's- For Her Ball of Foot Cushions
Sheer Cover- Duo Concealer
Aveeno- Body Wash

I loved the SoyJoy Bar! It was so good, and a great snack! I also really enjoyed the Bath & Body Works Paris Amour scent! My hubby really liked how the scent smelled on me! While I love the Sally Hansen Salon Effect, I wasn't a huge fan of the Kitty, Kitty print, but it was cute. I didn't really notice a huge difference when wearing the Dr. Scholl's inserts, but it may take more time before I can really give a good review on them. The Sheer Cover Duo Concealer worked well for me. It hid a lot of discoloration I have. I liked the Aveeno Body Wash, but I doubt I will purchase it. While it worked well, and had a pleasant smell, I am very happy with the body wash I am already using.


http://www.influenster.com/

Sally Hansen Salon Effects

I have used these many times, and Love them!

They really do hold up to their claims! They are fairly long-wearing, and are super simple to use!

I have even put some on while on my lunch break, in my car, and had no problem getting them on. It didn't take long at all, and I still had time to get lunch!

I will continue to repurchase these!

www.sallyhansen.com

Bath & Body Works: Paris Amour

I have always been a huge fan of Bath & Body Works, but I had never tried the Fragrance mist in Paris Amour!

It is a wonderful scent, and I now wear it often. My husbands absolutely loves the way it smells, so it is now my go to for date night!

I plan to find the matching lotion and body wash to Purchase.

http://www.bathandbodyworks.com

Sheer Cover Duo Concealer

I was very skeptical at first when I received the Sheer Cover Duo Concealer in my Influenster Spring Voxbox. I thought if this is so great, why give it away!

But, I am pleased to say that I was pleasantly surprised at how well it worked for me. I have some very noticeable skin discoloration, and It hide it very well. I have always been very self-conscious about the discoloration, but with the Sheer Cover, I didn't have to worry about it because no one could notice it.

I will be purchasing when I am out of the one I have been sent!

http://www.sheercover.com

Starting My Weight-loss Plan

So lately I have felt sort of disgusted with the way i look lately. I have really let myself go since getting married. I hate that, and I need to do something about it.

So before Josh and I try to start a family, I need to get my health on track. Not to mention that since I have PCOS, i need to put my health first. So I am going to work on me and start back on dieting and changing my lifestyle to better benefit a healthier life.

It isn't just going to be about losing weight, even though that is a big goal of mine. It is also to change the way I eat to stay healthy and keep the weight off. I want children, and I also want to be around to enjoy my children when I have them.

The Plan:

While I am still working out the exact diet I will go by, I do have some things I am going to cut out or cut back on.

So first I am cutting Soda, and I will only be drinking water. Also, I am going to be cutting down on eating out. My husband and I do tend to eat out a lot and that can be very bad. So I am going to cut back on eating out to maybe once a week, and when we do I will make healthier choices, such as salads or low calorie options. I am always going to prepare healthy snacks in zip-lock baggies according to their serving sizes. I am also going to try and eat more fruits and vegetables, especially in their raw form.

I am almost sure I am going to diet based on calories. I would say I will probably stay under 1300-1500 calories a day. So that's the plan. Wish me luck, and keep me in your prayers.

Racing Around Life

We are always rushing. We are hurrying to get here, and do that. We never slow down enough to see what is actually going on around us.

Our lives are literally passing us by.We never really enjoy anything because we are always hurrying along. I know that I need to have some patience and stop being in such a hurry. I need to enjoy my family more, and enjoy my life and the people in it.

Burning Bridges

Sometimes it is best to just suck it up and apologize to someone even if  you aren't in the wrong. Life is just too short to be upset and hold grudges.

I would rather go through life knowing that I did whatever I could to make things better with the people in my life. Even if they don't except your attempts to work things out, at least you know that you have done your part to make things right.

I always think of it in a sense that if God can forgive us for all of our sins and shortcomings, then I can forgive and let things go. I don't want things to be unfinished with people. I want to know that I have attempted to resolve any issues I have. Life is just to short to be angry with people. We will never know when our number is up, but when mine is I want to know that I haven't gotten any burnt bridges.

Discouragement

Have you ever noticed how some people just want to bring you down? I never understand why some do that. I mean really what does it do for them? I'm sure they probably get some sort of sick thrill from it, but that is in itself evil. 

Someone that feasts on others displeasure is just a very disturbed individual in my opinion. I know it can be hard to be happy for others when you are really happy, but It doesn't help to try and bring others done. Like they say misery loves company. 

I am just so over people like that. If I don't have anything nice to say, I'm just not going to say it. 

Progress

There is a Tim McGraw song out right now called "Better than I used to be". I am in love with the song and I feel like I love it so much because its me. Its everything I feel and I'm working on right now. I'm am trying to be a better me all around. With be a better Christian, Wife, sister, daughter, granddaughter, and friend. Also really trying to be proud of who I'm becoming. It says "I'm learning who I used to be, isn't who I have to be" and that is where I am right now. I am by far not perfect, and I have a crazy past but that doesn't have to be part of who I am now. I am making progress on becoming a changed/better me. That song to me just signifies where I'm at in trying to get there.

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Crappy Service

Is it just me or does it seem like people are too busy to give you good service anymore?

Stores are really bad about good customer service now. Sales employees are supposed to be there to help you, but that's not the case anymore. If you need help with something, they act like you are rude for asking, or that you are inconveniencing them.  I work retail and that is not how I treat people. I want them to enjoy coming to shop with us, because If it wasn't for the customer's the store wouldn't be there. I know that it isn't hard to give good customer service. Just be friendly, and treat people the way you would want to be treated.

I mean its not just in stores anymore. My post office is awful. I have had two lost packages in the last 3 months, and they never give me my mail on time. It seems like it just sets there. I am so aggravated, and their negligence with my package is making me look bad! I am so mad about the whole situation and they don't even care. I remember when they would do anything to help you, but now they could careless.

I can't imagine why people choose to act this way. If they would just simply do their jobs correctly the first time, they wouldn't have to deal with complaints and everyone would be much happier. It would make their jobs easier really, so why don't they just help themselves out and do things correctly.

Great News!

We are getting even closer to moving into our new house and I am so very excited. I love it, everything about it except for the carpet! I hate carpet, but that can be changed. We will be putting in all hard wood! I just can't wait to get in our house, and really start making it ours!

Challenge Week 2: Purple

This weeks challenge on Makeup Look of the Week on Facebook, is purples! You have to use at least two purples for an eye look. Purple is my favorite color, and I played around with four different purples and this is what I came up with........

Praying for Someone

Even though my friend and I are on rocky terms, she is in need of prayer. While we may not be on the same page with things, I will always care about her and want the best for her. If you are reading this and you believe in the Lord, please pray for her.

Friends Change

When you grow up, sometimes the people you were friends with before aren't your friends anymore. I hate to admit that, but It's the truth. You can in my case for instance, be friends with someone since the second grade and then realize 14 years later that you aren't going to have a friendship for very much longer.
The person I am talking about is someone that I thought I would have in my life forever, but Now I know it would be in our best interest to part ways. We are going in two different directions in our lives, and while that should be fine and dandy.... I am getting judged for my decisions! I am married and want to take the steps in building a wonderful future for myself and my husband.
While in her case she wants to party and stuff all the time.
That is not what me and my husband are about. Sure we enjoy our occasional night out, but not every night of the week. I don't judge her or tell her not to party, so I don't see why she would look down on us for wanting to be responsible, mature adults.
I have also learned a very important lesson. Married people and single people should not live together. We all moved in together after somethings happened at her moms house and she didn't feel comfortable living there anymore, or feel her four year old daughter should be growing up there.So my husband and I talked about it and decided we would ask them to live with us. Well needless to say several months later we are going our separate ways.
My mamaw always said you don't truly know someone until you live with them. I found this to be true. She is not the person I thought she was. While I will miss her little girl so much, we just have to go different ways. We have found a house and we are moving. while I would like to say we will remain friends after moving, at this point however I highly doubt that will happen.

Growing up

Most often people grow up physically before they ever grow up mentally. It would be ideal if we all matured mentally and physically at the same time. Unluckily it doesn't happen that way.
While I have been married now for 3 years, I haven't actually grown up that much until the last year. I think of the reasons why and it would have to be because I was so young when I married my husband, as was he. We were both eighteen and fresh out of school.
While we went trough rough times that would mature anyone, we still didn't really grow from it. I believe that is because my parents were always there to fix things. We never worried much about anything because we knew we had them to help us.
While I appreciated the help I know understand that it certainly didn't help us mature.
If we had to deal with our problems on our own I believe we would have grown up and matured a lot sooner.
My parents are still around to help us from time to time, but I realized we need to fix our own problems. I am a lot more stressed doing things that way, but I have new sense of pride knowing that we can handle things on our own.

Favorite Products of 2011

I decided to go through all the products I have been loving the most in 2011. I tried a ton of products this year, I've had hits and misses. Lets get started on my favs!

Face:
Maybelline: Mineral Power Liquid Foundation- Classic Ivory
Maybelline: Fit Me Pressed Powder- 120 Classic Ivory
ELF: Golden Bronzer
Rue 21 Beauty: Bronzer Blush
Garnier Fructis: Anti-Dark-Circle Eye Roller

Palettes:
Urban Decay: Naked Palette (My go to palette)
Wet&Wild: 8 pan Blue Had Me at Hello
Stila: Positive & Pretty

Lips:
Revlon Super Lustrous Lipcolor: Enough Buff
Revlon Super Lustrous Lipgloss: Nude Lustre
Covergirl Lip Perfection Lipstick: Spellbound
EOS Lip Balms: Sweet Mint, Lemon, and Strawberry Sorbet

Mascara:
Maybelline The Falsies: Black Drama (My go to)
Smashbox: Hyperlash

Primers:
Urban Decay: Primer Potion (Original)
Smashbox: Photo Finish Foundation Primer- Light